Meet My Author Friend, L M Heath!

Hi All! You may not know that authors like to share with their readers books and authors that truly inspire them. I would love to introduce you to my friend and former classmate, L M Heath! Check out the blurb from her debut novel, Estelle!

“I felt so angry as I was singing; all the self-control inside of me had to be unleashed so I wouldn’t yell at the Emperor…” 

The empire had taken away enough; they weren’t taking away her brother. Even though Estelle and her brother are forced to learn how to serve the emperor, they are forbidden to see each other. The emperor was also the very man who killed their parents. In order to survive their new world, they must forget everything they have ever known.

To learn more and get your own copy, click here!


As many of your know, my debut novel, An Angel in the Distance, was released in ebook form in 2015. Recently, it was released in paperback on Amazon! Just in time for the sequel, Angels In Darkness!

Click the link to get your copy!

“An Angel in the Distance” Sequel in the Works

Hello All!

I hope you are all well and reading until your hearts are content.  In 2008, I began working on a story that started as a rewrite of one of me and my mom’s favorite movies: Andy Tennant’s Ever After.  After a little research, I found the story hidden in history, and I let the words flow.  Seven years later, in 2015, it was polished and published as An Angel in the Distance, a rags-to-riches story with humor, history, a classic humanism characteristic of the time, and a hint of romance.  About a year ago, as I was thinking about the end of the novel, I found myself wondering, What happens to Piero after the end of the book?  Does he meet his demise?  Considering his arc as a sympathetic character turned villain, I wanted to give his a second chance to redeem himself.  Knowing the he destructive path he began in the first novel, I knew it would take something catastrophic to redeem him.

Suddenly, catastrophic was exactly what I intended to do.

As we all know, sometimes we get caught up in our own plans and forget that there is someone who knows what the best plan is, the best option, and sometimes the only option.  If we would only seek it out, and ask for guidance, we would find more than we could have ever hoped for.

A cryptic preview, yes, but I am looking forward to introducing all of you to the woman who will be the catalyst for Piero’s redemption: Carita Del Cuore.

More to come!

In the mean time, here is the new video meme for An Angel in the Distance

Happy Reading!

– A. R. Conti Fulwell ><>

10 Things You Learn After Being a Published Author for a Year

Many of you have reached out to me with questions about editing and publishing.  I do my best to give advice, and learn the tricks of the trade.  On August 11th of 2015, my first book, An Angel in the Distance, was published through CleanReads.  (Check them out at they’re doing some amazing things!)  Since then, there are a few things that I have gleaned, and compiled in this list for all of you up-and-coming authors and authoresses.


Okay, go ahead and laugh, or scowl, or throw something at the screen.  It is true.  We’ve all heard the cliché, “Rome wasn’t built-in a day,” well, your book won’t be published in a day, or a month, or a year, or maybe not a decade.  In this business, you have to be willing to stick it out, through the highs and lows, no matter what happens, or what people think or say.  Remember, God made you a writer – and NO ONE can take that way from you.


Most of us heard the song and dance in college or high school about how to get published.  Unfortunately, no one tells you what happens AFTER you get published.  The publishing market is changing, and it certainly isn’t what it was 30 years ago.  If you’re lucky enough to get published, be prepared to do some promotional leg work.  If nothing else, it looks REALLY good to potential agents/publishers.


Most of us have heard that in order to be a good writer, you have to be a good reader.  I’ve lived by that for years.  (In fact I have more books that my two shelves can hold…. maybe I should do something about that).  However, it is so much more than that.  How do other authors do what they do?  Pay attention.  I can’t stress it enough!


Do you have a friend who wrote a book?  Now you do 😉  Authors are a part of this secret pact that is kind of like, “You scratch my back, and I’ll scratch yours.”  Okay, so I’m oversimplifying, but remember, you catch more flies with honey than you do with vinegar, and always expect to give long before you ask for something.  And always, always, ALWAYS be gracious!!  Nobody likes a snobby author!!


It never really occurred to me until after I had published something that there was a possibility that someone would read my book and go, “Oh, I know who she based that character on.”  If you look at your characters and see the reflection of someone you know, don’t panic.  That is actually a GOOD thing.  Before you tell me I’m crazy, here is why: sometimes the most real characters are the ones we know.  If you’re really worried about this, talk to the person you based your character on, and see what they think.  You may have to change a few things about your character, but in the long run, you’ll know who they are and no one can take that from you.  Besides, imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, or so I hear.


If you don’t know the Lord and I just made you wrinkle your nose, calm down.  I’m a Christian.  I know Jesus Christ.  He’s taking me to where I’m going, and I wouldn’t be where I am without him.  Faith, (in any form), has A LOT to do with starting any endeavor, so if you don’t believe, you’ll never receive.


I thought it was nuts when my high school English teacher suggested that we read in order to become better writers, and imitate techniques.  How wrong I was.  By reading, you GET ideas, you GET insight, you GET the chance to experience something different.  So what if you’ve never read a Star Wars spin-off novel – PICK ONE UP.  Different authors have different techniques, and that can be a game changer.


As I stated above, being an author isn’t like sending your dog to the kennel for a week while you’re in Fresno.  It’s more like sending your kid off to college – you’ll be checking in, holding on, and chatting them up every chance you get.  If you get published, this will be a full-time job promoting and building your brand as long as you want to have an audience.


Okay, so we all detest that chick who is handing out her business cards in an overtly opulent way to the cashier at the Burger King.  We all know who she is.  You don’t have to be over the top, but having something physical to hand to someone who hasn’t heard of you, is a great way to network and gain opportunities to grow your brand and your audience.


Probably the biggest mistake I’ve made in the last year was not shouting it from the rooftops that I got something published.  I’m a private person, and that just wasn’t me.  DON’T BE LIKE ME.  Build your brand NOW.  You’re a writer.  It is going to be your profession (at least one of them) so be PROUD OF IT.  Anyone can scribble, but few people can write something and endure the pain of rejection long enough to make it in the publishing world.

Shout out to Meg Cabot for inspiring the list writer in me though her best-selling young adult series, The Princess Diaries.  

If you have questions, feel free to comment.  At the risk of being redundant I will add a lyric from High School Musical – “We’re all in this together.”

#ShortFictionSunday : The Matriarchs of the Ravenna Porch Society

The Matriarchs of the Ravenna Porch Society

“Bring me some sugar, will you?”  Ethel Flannigan, a tall, Scottish-complected lady in her late 60s, smiled sweetly at the new waitress at Cuddy’s Diner.  The poor girl, no more than seventeen, skinny as a rail, looked like she had just seen a train coming head on.

“Are you new?”  Ethel asked.

“Oh,” she snapped out of it.  “Yes, I’m Matilda, but everyone calls me ‘Tilly’.”

“Everyone except your employer,” Ethel pointed a perfectly manicured finger at Tilly’s name tag.

“Oh, right,” Tilly nodded.  “Sugar?”

“Yes, Tilly, the others will be here soon.”


“Yes, Tilly.  Others. Don’t worry, we’ll each leave you a tip.  Now scoot!”  Ethel shook her head.  Youngsters.

At the sound of the bell on the entrance door, Ethel saw one of the ‘others’ had arrived.

Yolanda Fairway, an African-American lady in her early 70s, sporting a short, natural pixie cut in a distinguished grayish white color, pursed her lips at the sight of her dear friend.  Ethel swore Yolanda was somehow related to Hallie Berry.  “Ethel Flannigan!”  Yolanda let her purse drop into the seat of the booth across from Ethel.  “One of these days I’m going to make it here before you.”

Ethel snickered.  “Oh, Landa, you’re just upset because I took your parking space.  Sit down, Tilly is coming back with sugar.”

Yolanda sat down across from Ethel. “There’s only one handicapped spot in the whole parking lot, and you got to take it every time!”



“I let you have it last week.”

Yolanda let her shoulders sink.  “Honey, I can’t remember my own name most of the time – you think I can remember what happened last week?”

Ethel stifled a laugh.

“And who is Tilly?”  Yolanda asked.

“She’s the new waitress.”  Ethel explained.

“New waitress?  Who left?  Wait!  Was it that girl,”  Yolanda paused, searching for words.  “You know, little white girl, mid-twenties, dark hair, always smiling?”

Tilly appeared with a small container of sweetener packets, and quickly scampered away.  The bell on the front door rang again as the last and final member of the group descended upon Cuddy’s Diner: Angela Tolini.  Angela was tall, blonde (thanks to Madame Clairol), and in her late sixties.  With the legs of someone twenty years younger, (all the Zumba had definitely paid off), anyone could hear her coming a mile away with her heavy-heeled canter.  “Darlings!  How are you?  Sorry I’m late.”  Angela slid into the booth next to Yolanda.

“Well, my dear, fashion is never on time is it?”  Yolanda laughed.

Ethel took a sip of her tea.  “Alex?”

“Alex who?”  Yolanda raised an eyebrow.

“The girl you were just describing.”  Ethel explained.

“Oh, you guys are talking about Alexandra Mezzo!  She put in her notice at Cuddy’s, and she has already left.”  Angela poured herself a cup of tea.

“Yes!  That’s her!  Where did she go?”

“To work for her cousin, Vinny, at his transmission shop downtown.”

“How do you know this?”  Ethel asked.

“I just got off the phone with her aunt before I left for Cuddy’s.”  Angela explained.  “Vinny needed some extra help.”

Yolanda shook her head.  “I don’t know about the two of you, but I don’t think it is right for a little girl like that to working with all those men.”

Angela let out an exhausted sigh.

“I understand what you’re saying, Landa,” Ethel said.  “This just wouldn’t have happened thirty years ago.”

“Maybe,” Angela paused, her painted pink lips curving into a wry smile, “all she needs is the right guy.”

Ethel laughed.  “You think she could benefit -”

The bell on the door sounded.  Yolanda glanced back at the door, and instantly turned around to hush the group.  “Here she comes!”

The three matriarchs casually turned to assess their next subject.  Alexandra Mezzo stood just over five foot seven, had shoulder length dark hair, a pale complexion, and greenish-hazel eyes.  Her dark hair was stuffed in a bun up under a black baseball cap, and taking no time to change, she stood in the middle of Cuddy’s Diner in over-sized coveralls.

All of the matriarchs turned back to their cups of tea.  “You’re right,” Ethel said.  “She needs our help.”

“Right,” Yolanda whispered.  “Let’s watch.”

Tilly came to the counter where Alexandra stood.  “Can I help you?”

“Yes,” Alex said with a pleasant, distinctly female voice.  “Carry-out order for Miselli.”

“One second,”  Tilly disappeared into the back of the restaurant.

As if on cue, the bell on the front door rang again.  This time, a man came in wearing a look of disgust, giving the three matriarchs flashbacks of Marlon Brando’s character from A Streetcar Named Desire.  At the sight of Alexandra at the counter, his jaw tightened.  “Hey!  You work for Vinny?”

The matriarchs watched as Alexandra swallowed, and slowly turned to face him.  “Who wants to know?”

“I do,” Brando took a step closer.  “Tell your dad that he should stick to domestics, or fold up shop.”

Alexandra’s jaw tightened, and she raised an eyebrow, folding her arms as she did.  “I know you,”

“Oh, do you?”  Brando looked amused.

“Yeah, 2005 Toyota Celica, red,” Alexandra walked a circle around him like a piranha circling its prey.  “Landfill in the backseat – yeah, that’s you.  Oh, he’s not my dad.  He’s my cousin, F.Y.I.”

“Man,” Brando stifled a laugh.  “If you knew transmissions as well as you knew trash, you might actually be able to help me.”

“If you got your facts straight, and acted like a human being, I might be willing to help you.”

“Nah,” Brando folded his arms.  “Don’t want your help.  I’ve got your number sweetheart.  The only reason you knew I drove a Celica is because you read it on the deck lid.”  He turned to the door.  “Deliver the message, kid.”  Brando hit the front door, sending it sailing, the bell ringing ferociously.

The matriarchs sipped their tea nonchalantly, watching Alexandra clench her teeth, pay Tilly, and storm out of the restaurant.

There was nothing but the hum of the meat slicer in Cuddy’s restaurant for a minute or two.

“Well?”  Angela asked her friends.  “What do you think?”

“I don’t know,” Yolanda looked to Ethel.

Ethel folded her hands beside her cup of tea.  “It is obvious, ladies.  They’re perfect for each other.”


#ShortFictionSunday : “Just What You Ordered”

Just What You Ordered

Potatoes.  Mashed Potatoes.  Every Friday at four o’clock, Mr. and Mrs. Beaumont would wander into Doris’ Restaurant dressed like this place was the Ritz, just to order Swiss Steak and mashed potatoes.

Rita, the hostess, who boasted more than 30 years of loyal service, showed the Beaumonts to their favorite booth in the corner by the window.  It didn’t matter that the teal vinyl on the booth benches was split down the middle.  The little old couple would sit across from each other, smiling like they were on their first date.

“Can I get you folks something to drink?” Rita asked, handing them menus.

“Two un-sweet teas, Rita.”  Mr. Beaumont held up two stubby fingers in emphasis.  “Is Amora here tonight?”

Rita gave him a knowing look.  “She’ll be right out.”

Just like that, as fast as you could snap your fingers, Amora came out of the kitchen with two glasses of iced tea.  She was tall, around five foot ten, bright blue eyes, and black hair coiffed to curl in at her ear lobes.

“My two favorite people,”  Amora smiled, putting the teas on the table.  “How are we tonight?”

“Fine now. Just fine.”  Mr. Beaumont waved a shaky hand in dismissal.  “Have you heard from him?”

Amora froze, feeling the blood drain from her face.  “From whom, Mr. Beaumont?”

Mr. Beaumont gave her a fatherly, knowing look over his bifocals.  “That young man you were going with.”

There it was, like the dolly zoom effect in film, the focus comes right at you and nothing can stop it.  She should have seen this coming.  It was the same question every week.  How could she tell them the truth?

“No, I haven’t heard from him.  He’s pretty busy with work.” Amora pretended to erase a pencil mark on her order pad.  She couldn’t tell them.

“Then he’s a schmuck.”  The last word whistled through his false teeth.

“That he is,” Mrs. Beaumont agreed.  “Honey, you deserve better.”

For a minute, it looked like Mrs. Beaumont might take Amora’s hand.

She didn’t.

The Beaumonts placed their order, and the evening continued in ordinary fashion.  Amora stood behind the counter, rolling silverware into paper napkins, tucking the contents away inside the machined paper bundle.

“‘Mora,” Rita said.  “I hate to ask,”

“I don’t like where this is going,” Amora laughed, knowing full well what was coming next.

“My husband is sick at home.  My daughter was watching him, but now she’s come down with it.”

“You need me to close for you.”  Amora finished Rita’s thought for her.

Rita nodded.

“Sure, no problem.  What are friends for?”  Amora lifted the blue plastic bin full of silverware rolls onto the counter.  She turned, passing the deepfryer, and like a frog snaps flies out of the air, Amora snatched three french fries from the basket.

“Hey!”  Rita threw her hands up.  “What do you think you’re doing?”

Amora laughed like she had just played the grandest joke.

Rita tossed her hands in the air in dismissal.  “This is the price I pay.”

Amora went back out into the dining room to check on the Beaumonts one last time before handing them their check.

“Now, Amora,” Mr. Beaumont began.  “If I ever meet this boy, he and I are going to have a stern talk.”

Amora laughed, knowing that even if Mr. Beaumont spent the rest of eternity giving her ex a stern lecture, at the end of time, it wouldn’t change a thing.  “Get in line, Mr. Beaumont.”  Amora laughed.  “By now there is quite the queue, and I’m at the front.”

Both of the Beaumonts chuckled.

“Take care of yourself,” Mrs. Beaumont said when Amora brought their change.

“Thank you, and have a good evening.”  Amora watched them leave.  When the bell on the door chimed, resonating for the last time, Amora felt her spirit sink, wishing she could melt into the ketchup-and-salt-crusted, beige tile floor.  She glanced back at Louie, the cook, back in the kitchen, swaying back and forth to his favorite Todd Lundgren hits playing though his white ear buds.

Suddenly, the door burst open.  Amora watched as a man came in, and sat down at a booth by the window with a distant look in his eye, like he hadn’t even known she was there.

She stood there by the counter, just staring at him, as if there was nothing she could do to make her feet move toward him.  I have to move forward.  She thought.  It is my job.  She took a deep breath, standing up straight to her full five foot ten inches, but she couldn’t ignore the uneasy feeling in her stomach.  She glanced back at Louie, and he was still bobbing away packaging up left over food.  Her eyes darted to the clock by the door: 8:55PM.

Her jaw dropped.  How long had she been standing here?  Had time really passed her by that quickly?

She looked at the man sitting in the corner booth, staring longingly out the window, and smiled.  There was something . . . familiar about him.

“Hello,”  she came over to the table, pencil and order pad in hand.  “Can I get you something to drink?”

His gaze jerked over to her, like she had truly broken whatever bond had sucked him into the windowed booth.  Just when the look of bewilderment had settled on his face, he answered.  “I don’t know.  Can you?”

Figures.  She thought.  A wise guy.  “I have two legs, and I’m on the clock, so I think I’m able.”  Amora unconsciously folded her arms.  “Now what will it be?”

Half of a smile appeared on his face.  “Do you have iced tea?”

“Yes, we do.  Sweet.  Unsweet.  Raspberry.”

He shook his head like she had overwhelmed him, then looked her square in the eyes.  “Unsweetened.”

There it was. Like a magnet, Amora started staring again.  He had the darkest eyes she had ever seen.

“Unsweetened?”  She asked, trying not to look like an imbecile.

A rumble of tenor-pitched laughter escaped from his mouth.  “Yes.  Has anyone ever told you look like Elizabeth Taylor?”

Amora closed her eyes, feeling herself blush.  “Yes, I hear that at least once a day.  I don’t believe it.”

“Don’t.  Don’t believe them.”

Amora felt the blow, and remembered her place.  “I’ll go get your tea.”

“You’re prettier than she is, was, she’s gone now isn’t she?”

Amora shook her head, trotting to the back to fill a glass with tea.  She brought it back to the table, setting it down in front of him.  She studied him, noticing how much he looked like an actor from a fairy tale spin-off show she used to love.  “Can I ask you one question?”

He grinned like a Cheshire cat, sitting back in his seat.  “I think you’re entitled, after I almost insulted you.”

“No, you did insult me, then you turned it around.”

“What’s you’re question?”  He took a sip of his tea and nodded.  “This is really good.”

“No it’s not.  It’s made from powder.”  She gritted her teeth.  “Do I know you?”


“What’s your name?”

“Jack Beaumont.”

#InspirationMonday : An Excerpt from “Good-Willed”

When I started writing in 2005, I began with a novel that I now call An Angel’s Story.  About six years later, I decided to rewrite it into what I now call, Good-Willed.  

Set in Syracuse, New York, 2010.


I glanced at the clock for the last time.  I still had five minutes.  One of the older librarians caught me looking.

“Why don’t you go home Angie, get a head start on the summer!”  Tammy said “I’ll lock up.  I’m sure you have a lot to think about now.”

I laughed.  “You know me, Tammy, I’m always thinking.  Don’t work too hard.  See you Monday.”  I picked up my book bag and headed for the parking lot.

I threw my bag into the back seat of my 2003 Pontiac Grand Am GT and headed for home.  I was proud of my car.  Jo had helped me pick it out.  He had said that it was top-of-the-line in 2003.  I trusted him, so I had dad cut the dealer a check.

I drove down Main Street and turned left down Prospect Avenue.  I heard something intriguing on the radio.  My inner-self was a force sitting beside me smacking my hand on the volume control.  Be eloquent.  Be unaffected.  Be captivating.

Be those things… some other day.

I threw the volume control all the way to the right until the light came on.  With the volume at its max, I was blown away.  It was like meeting someone for the first time, and knowing that this person is going to be a big part of your life.  The melody was his aura, his smile, and the lyrics were his personality, his charm.  To me, a song was more than just words on the page.  A good song has meaning and purpose.  I bobbed my head to the beat, and drummed my fingers on the steering wheel at the stop light.  I looked over at the turn-lane next to me.  A lady who worked in the same office as my mother glares at me.

And we’re back to reality.

I pretended that something had gone wrong with my stereo and frantically turned down the volume.  I made a right turn onto Stargate Street, and pulled into our driveway.  I parked my car and headed for the house.

Our house was eerily empty, but that was normal.  Even when dad wasn’t away on business, it was never, “Hi, Honey!  I’m home!” when he walked through the door.

I went upstairs to my room, setting my book bag down by the door.  I noticed a note on my pillow.  I picked it up and sighed with annoyance upon recognizing my mother’s handwriting.


            Since I know you have a tendency to forget things like this, I thought I would remind you:

                        Dinner @LeCuisine

                        Reservation for three


See you there ~


Dinner with Aunt Beth – there was little chance I would forget that.  Aunt Beth was mother’s older sister, who had owned and operated her own publishing company for thirty years.  She only recently sold it, making millions on top of the millions she already had.

I groaned.  This was mother’s last-ditch effort to get me to nail down my future.  Sure, I’d applied and got into six different schools – Yale, Duke, Dartmouth, Sarah Lawrence, N.Y.U., and Ohio State – but I hadn’t decided yet.  Mother had arranged this dinner hoping that Aunt Beth would talk some sense into me.

I scoffed.  Sense?  What would their sense be?

They didn’t want me to have sense; they wanted me to be sensible.

Oh what a blessing a prior-engagement would have been.

I flipped through my closet looking for something appropriate for LeCuisine.  It was a French restaurant in downtown Syracuse, where no one got in without a reservation, or a platinum Visa charge for that matter.

I came across a mauve colored suit and gaged.  This is what mother would have me wear.  Very lawyer-like.  I imagined it with black alligator pumps and a French twist.

Super lawyer.

I threw it back into my closet.  When I reached the back of my closet, I came across a department store garment bag.  I anxiously grabbed the hanger and lifted the plastic cover.  It was a white sun dress with navy polka dots and trim.

Very Mademoiselle Hilfiger.

I smiled.  I’ll take it.

I zipped the dress, threw my hair into a French twist, and found my navy stilettos, and ran out the door only three minutes late.  I zoomed out of our allotment, barely getting by adults with small children and children with small adults.

Two red lights later, I was in the heart of downtown.  I spotted LeCuisine, and scouted out a parking spot.  I went inside, and the host led me to where my mother and Aunt Beth sat.  It was a secluded table right next to the kitchen door.  Mother sat wearing her pale pink suit, sipping coffee.  Aunt Beth was in a similar style black suit, eyeing the menu nonchalantly.  I tried not to laugh.  It was as if the two of them were having a contest as to who could sit up the straightest.  Aunt Beth spotted me first.

“Angie, darling!  Let me take a look at you!” Aunt Beth admired my dress while mother scowled at my fashion sense.

“I don’t remember that dress” mother said.

I pretended that I hadn’t heard her.  “Hello, mother.”  I could tell from the gilded smile on her face that I was in for quite an evening.

When the waiter came, Aunt Beth ordered canard – duck – and I ordered quail.

Mother ordered snails.

Aunt Beth and mother neatly nibbled at their entrees, while I, on the other hand, gobbled my quail as to not have to speak.

“Congratulations, Angie.  High school graduation is the stepping stone for success” Aunt Beth said over her haricot verts.

“Thanks” I mumbled.

Mother leaned forward as if to whisper.  “Aunt Beth has offered to pay your first year’s tuition at Dartmouth.  Isn’t that kind of her?”

I almost choked on my fowl.  “Aunt Beth, that is simply the most generous offer, and I thank you, but I really cannot accept –”

“– Oh certainly you can!  You’ve filed the proper paperwork, and you know what Dartmouth is offering you” Mother interrupted.

“Yes, but I’m not sure if that is what I want.”

Mother’s eyebrows shot up to her hairline.

“Have you applied elsewhere?” Aunt Beth asked.

“No, she hasn’t” Mother answered for me.

The check was paid, and we said our goodbyes, but when I found myself back in the driveway, I didn’t want to get out of the car.

After a fifteen minutes internal debate, I could no longer stand the suspense.  When I stepped inside the house, it was totally silent.  I moved towards the staircase.

“What on earth was that?” Mother asked, standing in the kitchen doorway.

I froze on the stairs.  I didn’t look at her.  “What?”

“Oh you know exactly what I mean!  I offer the world to you and you throw it away!”

I glared at her.  The dance had begun.  “You don’t know what I want!”

Mother crossed the dining room floor to the staircase and looked up at me.  “Do you know what you want?”

I couldn’t answer that question.  There simply wasn’t an answer.  Better to give no answer then to tell my mother that she was right.

Mother smirked and walked back towards the kitchen.  “I didn’t think so,” mother said “it might not be what you want, but if you’re living under my roof, you’ll learn to take my advice.”

Advice?  You mean your orders.  I gripped the banister.  “Maybe I’ll move out.”

“You wouldn’t last one second on your own, we both know that.”

“Really?  Because I think I have done a pretty good job on my own, mom.  Did I even exist in your eyes before now?”

“What is that supposed to mean?”

“You’re so concerned with your life, you have no idea what’s going on in mine.  Then you want me to go to a school because that’s what you think is right for me?  I may not have all the answers, but I’m pretty sure I know what I don’t want!”  I started up the stairs.  I heard her heels stomping on the staircase.  Suddenly, she was standing in my bedroom doorway.

“Hey!  Don’t forget who is the parent and who is the child!”

“Tell me,” I said turning around “how does that work?  I’ve never experience that before.”

“That’s enough!”

“Are you sure?  I’m just getting started.”

“I said that’s ENOUGH!”

The sound of her voice made the locusts in the yard grow silent for a moment.

“You have two options young lady, you either sign the papers and go to Dartmouth, or you get out of my house.”

“I’m not going to Dartmouth” I said.

“Fine,” she said, her dark eyes locked on mine.  “Get out of my house, and don’t bother coming back.  I don’t want to see you at Thanksgiving, or Christmas, I don’t even want to see you on Mother’s day! – Do I make myself clear?”

I gripped the car keys in my hand.  “Loud and clear.”




“I don’t need her” I said out loud to my reflection in my rearview mirror.  “You just wait.”

I zoomed down Route 81 South, taking my brother’s shortcut to New Hampshire.  My situation was simple – stay with Joe for a week or two until the argument blew over, and then everything would be fine again.  The only thing standing between myself and freedom was the night sky and a couple of toll booths.  I had an iron foot, and a full tank of gas – nothing would stop me.  I took my phone out of my purse, still wearing my designer dress and pumps, and called Joe.  It rang five times and then went to voicemail.  “Hey Joe!  I’m headed up to see you!  I’ll be there soon!  Love you.  Bye.”

An hour went by.  My eyelids were growing heavy.  It was one o’clock in the morning.  I shook my head, turned on the cruise and called Joe again.  “Hey Joe, it’s me again.  I’ll try not to fall asleep at the wheel.  Call me!”

I set my phone in the cup holder, and focused on the road.


My eyes shot open seconds before I headed for the guard rail.  I managed to get back in my lane, and shake off my lethargy.  I turned on the radio.  The upbeat pop music screamed through my speakers.  I put my eyes on the road again.


I awakened to a close-up of the guard rail.  Frustrated and fatigued, I centered myself on the road again, and called Joe for a third time.  “Joe, where are you?  Call me back!”

Loneliness crawled inside of me swarms of tiny spiders.  Was Joe even at school?  Maybe he was with dad.

There’s an idea.  I thought.  Call dad.  I dialed.

Straight to voicemail.

I threw my phone back into the cup holder, trying not to pout.  There was no sense in leaving another voicemail.  No one was awake.  No one was around, and even worse…

… no one cared.

Was there anyone out searching for me?


Had mom called my phone since I stormed out?

I checked.


I was alone.

Alone.  Singular.  Without others.

So alone that if I crashed into the guard rail, no one would even think to look until morning.

The thoughts stung me, and tore at me.  My eyes filled with tears, and I let them.

I continued onward down Route 81, not knowing where I was going.  It didn’t matter anymore.

Around five o’clock, my gas light came on.  I ignored it.

Fine, let me run out of gas.  It would just make giving up that much easier.

I took the first exit to Lord knows where.  I passed green signs for towns I’d never heard of.  I could barely keep my eyes open long enough to read Jameson Hospital.

I laughed so hard the sound echoed off of my windshield.  I was lost, completely lost.

When my gas light started blinking, I knew I was too far gone.  I pulled off to the side of the road and shut off my car.  I reached for the lever under my seat and scooted back all the way, pulled the lever at my left, reclined the seat, made sure my doors were locked, and went to sleep.




The next thing I knew, someone was pounding on my window.  It sounded like a cement block colliding with the door frame.  I jerked straight up and glared at the annoyance.

He was tan, about twenty years old, I guessed, with dark hair and a grim look on his face.  He was so tall, he was almost doubled over looking down into my car.

“Are you okay?” he yelled.  The sound muddled through my closed window.

I just stared at him.

“Open the door!” he grabbed the door handle.

Who did this guy think he was?  I cracked my window.  “I’m fine thank you.”

“Are you homeless?”


“Then why are you living in your car?”

I looked around my car.  Other than my purse in the seat next me and my phone in the cup holder, I had nothing else.  “Where am I?”

He smirked.  “You’re lost aren’t you?”

“No, I just want to be sure.”

“You’re lost.  Don’t lie.”

I unconsciously flared my nostrils.  “Fine.  Where am I?”

“Admit it.  You’re lost.”

I gritted my teeth.  Great.  Of all the tour-guides, I had to get smarticus.  “Look, whether I’m lost or not, I’m still sitting here with no gas and no way to get where I’m going – ”

“– which is where exactly?”

“New Hampshire.”

He laughed.  “What’s in New Hampshire?” he leaned against my door frame.

“None of your business.”

“Fine.  Fair enough.  Where are you from?”

I squinted at him.  “What does that matter?”

He raised his eyebrows and shook his head.  “Look, I don’t know what your problem is, but I’m trying to help you.  I hate to tell you, but if you’re heading to New Hampshire, you may want to turn around.  You’re in Ohio, Sweetheart.”

I about collapsed onto the steering wheel.  “What?!  I’m in Ohio?”  How did I end up in Ohio?!

“Well, if you want to get out of Ohio, I suggest you get moving.  I can take you into town and get a tow truck.”

“And leave my car here?!”

He sneered.  “Lock your doors, sweetheart” he walked away.  I watched him in my rear-view mirror.  He got into his Chevy pick-up and waited.

I glared at my own reflection in the mirror, debating as to whether or not to take him up on his offer.  He leaned out the window of the truck.  “Hey!  Sweetheart!  Can we pick up the pace?”

I grumbled, taking my purse and slamming my door.  Why on earth do I trust him?  I wondered.

I didn’t exactly come across the Ohio welcoming committee upon my descent from Syracuse.  I saw smarticus lean over and unlock the passenger door of the truck.  When he sat up straight again, he had a large grin on his face.

Great.  A first-class hick.

I stepped up into the truck and slammed the door.

“Easy on the hardware, sweetheart!” he said.

“I do have a name, you know!”

Smarticus raised an eyebrow and leaned over looking me in the eye.  “As do I.  Where were you headed?” he asked playing with the navy blue crape that extended from the bottom of my skirt by my calf.

I smacked his hand.  “Hands off, smarticus!”

“Sorry, you just look like you’re heading to the President’s dinner party” he looked back at me, with a soft look on his face.  Just when I looked back at him, he turned his eyes to the road and started his truck.

“There I go…  Turn the page….”

The song emanated through the speakers.  It was infective.  I started tapping my foot.

“My name is Jesse,” Smarticus said.  “Jesse Rodini.”

I looked back at him.  He didn’t seem so scary.  “Angie Viviola.  Thanks for picking me up.”

He nodded.  “I’ll hit the gas station, and then I’ll call for you a tow.”

“That’s alright.  I don’t need a tow.  I just need gas.  Is there any way that you can get gas to my car from where it is sitting?”

Jesse looked over at me with smirk.  “You mean like a gas can?”

I squinted again.  “What’s a gas can?  Do you mean they sell gas in cans?”  Maybe in Ohio they do things differently.

Jesse laughed out loud.

“What?!” I demanded.

Jesse just laughed, hurling the truck around the corner.  The force threw me over towards the door, causing me to hit my head on the window with a low thunk.  I moaned and rubbed the side of my head.  “Hey Evil-Kenevil!  Watch the corners, would you?!”  I snapped.

Jesse just laughed.  “You do know this isn’t nineteen ninety-eight, right?” he looked over at me.  “Your reference is a bit dated.”

I glared at him, imagining a hole in the center of his forehead.

“Okay, okay.  I’ll grab a gas can from our garage, and we’ll go back for your car.  Okay?” Jesse said sincerely.

“Is there such a thing as a gas can, or is that some sort of hick joke?”

“Of course it’s a real thing!  ‘Hick joke’?  Good Lord, where did you come from?” Jesse laughed “really I want to know.”

I looked in the side mirror, ignoring the lump that rose in my throat.  “Syracuse, New York.  I was going to see my brother in New Hampshire, but I must have made a wrong turn.”

“At least one,” Jesse said pulling into a gravel driveway.  He shut off the truck and took the keys out of the ignition.  “I’ll be right back.”

I watched him walk over to the stand-alone garage.  He punched a code into the keypad and the garage door opened.  He grabbed a red container with a handle, and closed the garage door.  He headed back to the truck, throwing the container in the truck bed.

Jesse came around the driver’s side and got in.

“Thank you, Jesse.  I’ll pay you back” I said digging through my purse.

Jesse started the truck and backed out of the driveway.  “You don’t have to do that.  Keep your cash.”

“I was going to write you a check.  How much is gas down here?”

Jesse glared at me.  “You went west.  It’s ‘over here.’  Keep your check” he grumbled getting back onto the highway.

Suddenly, we heard a siren in the distance.  Jesse pulled over, and we watched a cop pass us.

“Wonder what that was all about” Jesse said.

“Do you not see cops much around here?”

“Not like that.  Something is up.”

Another siren blared behind us.  Jesse pulled over again as a fire engine passed us.

“This must be bad” I said.

“What?  Don’t see fires in Syracuse?”

“Usually we see an ambulance too.  If there isn’t one of those….” I hesitated.

“I see what you mean.”

I looked ahead in the distance.  There were clouds of smoke floating up into the sky.  “Aren’t you parked right over there?” Jesse pointed

My heart started to race.  “I thought so.”

We crested the hill, and that is when we saw it.

Three cop cars and a fire engine surrounding a smoldering fireball.  Jesse stopped the truck and jumped out.  I slowly got out, holding onto the truck to steady myself, unsure as to what I was seeing.  Jesse found a police officer and brought him to me.  Jesse explained to the cop that the car was mine.  The cop muttered something about an Impala slamming into the back of it, and the driver being asleep at the wheel.

I heard nothing but the crackling of molten metal.

“We’ll be in touch” Jesse told the cop.  “Come on, Angie.”

I stood firm, not ten feet away from my car.  That could have been me.  Not fifteen minutes ago I was asleep inside that car.  That could have been me. 


I took a shallow breath.  “There’s nothing left?”

“No.  I’m so sorry, Angie.”

Suddenly, it was like I couldn’t breathe.  “But, Jesse, I left my phone in the car!”

“You can get a new one, Angie” he said trying to turn me away from the fire.  “Is there anyone you can contact?  Someone at home?”

I sniffled, but I would not cry.  I looked up at the sky in order to speak.  “Yes, I remember my home number, but that will only get me my mother.  Believe me, she wouldn’t want to hear from me.”

Jesse looked around, thinking.  “Why don’t you come back to the house.  We’ll get you something to eat, and think about this.”

“Back to the house?” What house?  Who’s house?

“Yeah, back to the house.”

Jesse headed back to the truck.  I looked back at the pile of molten metal.  I bit my lip, and headed for the truck.